So I've been kind of crazy busy today. It's nice to just have a few minutes to sit and reflect and think of how thankful I really am .
 I've just been busy today. I noticed today that my tree outside my apartment building is actually turning colors so cool for living in Mesquite where you hardly ever see the seasons of the year change..loved it. It brightened my day that was one thing I loved about today besides going to help at the senior center with my mom for about an hour.
 I've been reading in my scriptures about the importance of listening to our prophet president Thomas S. Monson and not following anyone else. I've also been reading about Jesus Christ being the head of our church.
 Oh I got a package today with some Christmas presents that I ordered. Kind of excited.
Hope everyone has a happy Thanksgiving.

I haven't been up to much today. We were going to go to st George but we didn't end up going today.
 I've been a little sad these last couple of days. Lets just say I haven't made good choices in friends lately. It's been hard.
 I read my scriptures today and studied about Jesus Christ being the head of our church. I also read Teachings of Howard W Hunter about Honesty. I'm still about three lessons behind. Hoping to catch up next week.
 I had a good dream last night. I dreamt I was really really sick and Brother Healey my seminary teacher came to visit me and help me. Such a good dream.
 That's about all that's been going on.

  Well got some much needed blessings today God is good.
 First I'm finished with my therapy in Las Vegas. Individual one on one therapy. I don't have much to talk about anymore. I just want to say thank you to Dr. Warren Wheatley for your help. You really have helped me a lot. I am glad though that I don't have to go to Las Vegas anymore for therapy. It felt good leaving like I'm on to a new chapter in my life.  I felt like I've accomplished something great. It was time. Now continued group therapy is what I'll be doing. And continuing to challenge myself. I need to work on my assertive skills and boundaries. But I'm also working on accepting myself.
 My second blessing is I received help with my housing-discounted rent. What an awesome Christmas present.
 Third I get to go see the Christmas play it's a wonderful life in St. George.
 Some things in my life are starting to look up. Its been one great day.
 My scripture study was on listening to the Lord really listening and I read two chapters in Teachings of Howard W. Hunter one on marriage...something to think about and one on protecting and preserving the family. Both were really good. I came home and took some cold medicine but like I said it's really been a great day.

I haven't been up to much lately...mostly resting, reading, and being bored. Yesterday I had therapy groups.
 I'm almost done with anxiety group..have mixed feelings about that. Kind of sad cause I could use some reminders kind of glad. Anyways we kind of talked about stepping away from our anxiety and looking at it and confronting it taking it head on combined with our thought process and changing the way we think. It was a lot of thinking to take in.
 In women's group we learned the steps of how to tell someone no.
 I went to the mid singles activity last night for our church we had a bon fire..it was kind of fun.
 I am really down and sad this morning and I don't really know why. I feel like and have been crying all morning...maybe my depression medicine will help. I'm just really upset. Maybe I just need a good cry.
 They are having a blood drive today but I decided not to go because I'm sick and have been sick So they probably won't take my blood anyway.
 I have Disney kids today the jungle book. Get to go help out in the art room hopefully.
 I need to make a phone call to today but don't really want to.
 Yesterday in scripture study I studied about Eternity. Also read through a prior relief society lesson Teachings of Howard W Hunter on the sacrament. It was really a good lesson. I'm about five lessons behind and need to catch up. Sometimes I'm just in the mood to read it.
 Am reading Ernest Hemingways book For whom the bell tolls. So far it's really good.
 That's about how my life is going these days.
 I had a opportunity to accept myself with jamie last night. It was hard But I did it. I'm working on a lot. Going through a lot. Maybe that's why I'm so sad this morning.

So today has been a pretty good Veterans Day. I've been sick so I've been resting today and am thankful for the freedom to do that. It has been kind of boring though.
 I've been reading and have about seven more chapters in my book. I'm reading the client by John Grisham.
 I was trying today to connect the soldiers to our future generation by what I posted on facebook. I am thankful for our future generation.
 I am very thankful for my grandpa today who served in World War II. He used to sit and talk to me about it and share his experiences. I miss that. I am glad he fought for my right to vote and all my other freedoms that I have. He served in many areas throughout Europe and was an MP at one point. Military Police. I am glad for his wisdom and knowledge that had his instincts. After the war he came home and married the cute red head my grandma Vera whom I also miss so much. He was very grateful and proud of all his kids grandkids and great grandkids. I was kind of thankful he wasn't around to see this election I think it really would have bothered him but hopefully we can make America great again. Thank you for all your posts about Veterans Day and I think that's where change starts with good people like you. In our own homes.
 I've had a lot of time to sit and ponder today about our veterans and have spent time listening to patriotic music. I'm glad to be an American.
 I forgot to read my scriptures today oops.
  I haven't had any bad dreams lately. Knowing I am loved has been helping.

So I didn't do much today. Helped Jamie move a few things around in her house cause she's cleaning.
 I have a cough and I don't know why. Hopefully it will get better soon.
 I did read some in my book and I did some of my puzzle book.
    I did read my scriptures today but today's and the thought for tommorrow is the same so I will wait till tommorrow.
 Nothing too good to watch on TV tonight don't really have anything to do tommorrow might be a long day but maybe a day of rest cause I am sick.
 My hot chocolate tonight really hit the spot.
  I am working on knowing I am loved and knowing I'm accepted and accepting myself
Its taken me a long time to get this far and this one has a lot to do with Jamie which is my hard one but I'll make it through.
 We are learning assertive skills in my women's group but it's a very difficult thing for me to do. I don't know if I can. Luckily there hasn't been any situations at home lately where I've had to use it but I know they are coming.
 I hate how things are different sometimes. They had to be though after I went through the temple and working on Jamie especially being there with me. This is my hard one. I've also been working on my mom but Jamie is especially hard. But then I can finally say I'm finished with working through my hard difficulties it may still be there for a little while But I'm getting closer to being finished. I think acceptance of myself will help me a lot. I'm still working through my anxiety group although accepting myself helps with that and I have my depression group to go through and also my grieving group but I'm making progress.
 

I am so glad elections are over. I voted early and wanted to vote third party but I ended up voting for Donald Trump because I didn't want Hilary to win because I wanted someone who would stick up for religious freedom and I didn't agree with her abortion policy. I felt good about my decision and my vote even though Trump is also corrupt in some ways but he is also very honest and tends to check his facts. I am just glad it's over and that Trump won over Hilary.
God heard my prayers and I think this has been a wake up call for all of us that we need to be more righteous. I think we can make the biggest difference of all in our own homes.
 I so love the scriptures. I have been reading about something near and dear to my heart something special that I do not want to share on a blog but I will say this. I've been studying two different names of our Savior Jesus Christ. When he is referred to as Lord and when he is referred to as Jehovah. I even studied the meaning of the name Jehovah in the bible dictionary and it is amazing.
I haven't done much today I Went and volunteered at the Mesquite Library for an hour.
 Tomorrow I have to get up early for an appointment and I have Disney kids show tommorrow afternoon.

So I really wanted to say something in church all day.
 I am thankful for my many blessings. I have been praying for our country and the election starting last night and this morning and all day but . I really studied out who to vote for this year but. this morning I. also got an impression that we have to have faith in our Savior.
 I spend a lot of time with nonmembers these days in my groups and things and I have to have the strength of my scriptures and my testimony. I have to keep myself and my testimony strengthened. So that I an stand for the things I know are true and so I know what it is I believe. Cause if I didn't some of these voices could lead me down the wrong path if I didn't know what it was I believed in and if I didn't have that reminder or the strength that the scriptures give me every day.

Well it has seemed like I've been busy lately. Yesterday I went to Anxiety group and women's group. In anxiety group we talked about the different areas of self talk and which areas are more dominant in our life. The worried the critic the victim and the perfectionist. I have a little of all of them and I've been working on them, but the critic seems to be the most dominate in my life. In women's group we talked about being assertive.
 I had a fun Halloween at the fourth ward party and trunk or treat.
 Today I decided that a book my neighbor loaned me a book that is Just way not appropriate so I'm going to give it back to her in a few days.
I also went and voted today at early voting. sad to say I'm not to happy with any of the presidential candidates nor the one I voted for. I am now over at jl bowler elementary helping with Disney kids show the jungle book.
In my scripture reading I've been reading about Parley p Pratt and Orsen Pratt the early missionaries and also the importance of listening to the spirit and to the Lord.
 I have relief society tonight and the world series cubs vs Indians again tonight. Go Cubs.