So I dont really know what to say today. Its Saturday and I slept in got laundry ready to go spent some time with mom and Jamie came home and got my dishes done and getting ready to cook dinner tonight.
 I am finding that Ive been a little down a little blue lately. I miss my grandma Woods. And I still feel guilt about a lot of things although im trying not to. I try to think of things I can do for others instead of feeling down. I try so hard to overcome depressiin and my Savior and my friends help me in so many ways. They let me talk to them and I have a really great support group. I try so hard to stay positive. I also am still struggling in my ward. Ive made a few friends but its been hard and yet I can't imagine myself in a different ward. I love the gospel though and I love learning so I usually seem happy. I've learned a lot and have grown a lot. I can tell I want to retreat back into my shell but I have good safe friends who wont let me. I enjoy cpming out of it a little but sometimes it can be uncomfortable. I am feeling a little more secure though and getting a little more brave but I dont know about my mood lately. Like I said I kind of want to regress and go back into my shell away from my support group which isnt a good thing. But Im thankful for a Savior and for good friends who dont judge. Part of it is my grandma part of it is blaming myself and part of it is missing my friend. I kept teling myself that this was going to be a test of my self-esteem maybe thats part of it too. While trying to work on my relationship with my mom. I have to work from the inside out getting everything inside of me out.
We are headed to California next week to see my nephews. Am kind of excited about that and a little nervous. Excited to celebrate Jamies birthday with her.
 I haven't really had any faith promoting stories this week. Im trying to make a habit of writing those down for other people to read and myself to read and remember when they or I are struggling.
I havent been doing very good on my road to trying to lose weight since Ive been sick. It really knocked me down for a while and Im not so sure how I will do on this trip but I have to try and work towards my goals.
 I learned today we git asked to take salads or a dessert to our family reunion in April so Ive been trying to decide what to make.
 Anyways thats whats coming up in my life in the next few weeks and the things that Im facing right now.