So I feel a little...a little better today. Church was kind of hard. A lot of it was sharing our experiences and I got to nervous I couldnt do it and had a hard time thinking.
   Tomorrow is part of Jamies birthday party. It should be fun.
    I cried during a special musical number in sacrament meeting today because I have gone to the Lord in prayer a lot its just sometimes you need friends to talk to too. Its okay to have friends..good friends? I think its important. The Lord has carried me at times just like the song said, and I am grateful for that. This hasnt been easy.
 Im tired tonight and have to get up early to go to the dollar store. Im going visiting teaching hopefully tomorrow.
 I hate being depressed and I hate it when my mom should be there for me and all she does is cry and be depressed which makes me even more depressed. Ive been praying and working so hard on my moms relationship I just dont know what else to do.
Its like my mom gets sad and scared and doesnt know what to do so she tries to turn to me. This mess is all very confusing but it will work out hopefully. My grandma would say it would and shed pray for me.
  Sometimes Im ok and sometimes I feel kind of lonely.
   Anyways....thats about it tonight.