Well finally feeling better after being sick all week. What a nasty cold. So thankful for my mom for coming to visit me and helpingme to feel better. My working out has gone down hill sad to say since Ive been sick.
 Church was good today. Talks on trials and turning to the savior in sacrament probably something I needed to hear. In sunday school we talked about revelation and what revelation is. To me its when God opens the windows of heaven to our view. It also to me is not just about facts and knowledge given. Its about being inspired. I believe god speaks to man on the earth today and that he gives us what we need when we need it. In other words I believe in revelation and that it is found on the earth today. Like the other day ive been inspired to check on a sister I visit teach and come to find out shes been sick. He answers our prayers and is aware of each of us.
 In Relief Society we worked on family history. I actually found five names to take to the temple. I am excited and nervous.
 I recieved my book I ordered from brave girls club which I am both excited for and sad. It is a really great book but its a sign im being braver and setting some boundaries with my close friend but im sad because it changes our relationship a little and sometimes change and growing can be good but hard.
 Ive been sad a lot this week dealing with a lot but I feel a little better today...got some good advice and guess for right now Ive just got to put one foot in front of the other again until things start to work out and I feel better until I can get past missing people I love who are gone.
 Being so sick and having to stay down and not feeling good hasnt helped my depression either but now that im feeling better maybe some of that will change.
   Things will get better hopefully. I miss my friend too but shes been in my head. I miss writing to her and telling her about whats going on in my life and her writing to me and telling me to keep smiling.
   I'm just also trying to make my life better by thinking more with my mom and my sister so my emotions dont go to deep with them when they share experiences and I either get into a deep depression or I have trauma and cant talk....Ive been working hard on this for a long time and could use some help. Im thinking with experiences so I can also cry with the girls and be okay just to cry if I feel like it and so that I can share experiences of my own. Its a work in progress.
 Ive got some busy weeks coming up and fun days ahead.